The world is blind.
Why are you trying to possess someone else’s life?
Aren’t you happy with yours?
Why do you look up to them, can’t you just make yourself your idol?
Why do you feel the need to fight against all odds just because they didn’t see you?
Why do you feel the urge to be seen? when all that brings is, pressure.
There are questions in your mind which are connected to your heart directed towards your emotions and mostly rooted to your hormones.
You might not realise but you have always been one of them, just the silent one.
Like a dormant volcano, that they never wanted to burst. But all you did, was stay put.
That was their fault, not yours. So if you are not seen that doesn’t always mean that you are not worthy enough to be seen. It can also be because the world is blind.
Why to blame yourself when you don’t get that extra care that you think you deserve?
It is what every living organisms or the non living ones should have, care.
No one has the right to take away the care anyone deserves. Perhaps they don’t want you but they can’t toss you around like your existence doesn’t mean anything.
It’s not your fault, just know that.
Forget about what they didn’t give you or what you couldn’t ask for because now is the time to get it for yourself. Be your own idol.
P. S. — I so waana write dark. But have no inspiration for it but then I’m my own inspiration so I’m gonna get it anyhow. Also, people reading this not to be a narcissist but really, be on your own. Believing in people is not gonna take your anywhere. I know it makes me a very alienated person which I am not in real life but I like to feel it through my writing, because I always wished to have multiple personalities and by writing, I can be anyone I want. So, maybe that can be one of the reasons why I write and that’s the reason I wrote about this conversation to myself. Okay, much for today, will meet you again. Till then, bie.
